I'm a stitch away from making it...

So, it seems like everything is in order now, though the trip is delayed by about four days. I'll be moving to Green River, Wyoming next week, most likely leaving either Monday night or Tuesday morning. I'll be sort of documenting my trek from North Carolina to Wyoming by way of pictures and such, maybe video. So I've packed tons of batteries along so I won't run out. I probably won't have web access, unless I by some miracle find a laptop on my way there and can blog about it, which I totally want to do since I'll be passing through like ten different states. Anyway, I'll be packing up the computer in a couple of days so I'll be connected for a little while longer, not much. I'll miss Buzznet the most, of course(just don't tell my friends).

Anyway, I'm reeeally excited for this, but a little scared too. I'll be starting over at a whole new school for my senior year which is a little drastic, but I think I can handle it. I've survived three years of high school already, so why not one more? I've also been told by my dad, who was out there for three months and then flew home on Monday, that there's cultural differences too, as well as the weather and such. I'm stoked for super low humidity after living in the two most wet states in the U.S. for my entire life, so that means good hair days all around. The winters are brutal and the summer's nice. Tons of fluffy snow that I'll be taking full advantage of to learn how to snowboard. Even the way people up there talk is different. Yeah, I know it sounds stupid, but it's true. I'm from the deep south so I'm sure I'll be getting plenty of jokes made about my accent though it's gotten way less southern the last few years. And...(gasp) they don't have sweet tea, as in at restaurants. Bahaha, I know it's silly to anyone else but it feels weird because it's pretty much a staple here in NC. I'll live.




This will give you an idea of what it looks like. Cute, huh?



And I'm pretty sure this is the Green River. Hence the name of the town.



I just think this shot is gorgeous and it's in Green River. So yeah.

While waiting to perform at a Rock The Vote concert for the Democratic National Convention, MTV got the chance to catch up with Pete Wentz and Patrick Stump. They gave us some info about the new album, Folie a Duex, which will be released to hit stores November 4th.

Apparently, it is and it's getting even more intricate. Currently, the site for DecayDance has been hacked, as you can see below. Also, there is a link to Citizens For Our Betterment by clicking on the fake mustache pasted on Doug's face. Read more...

Hey Diehards!

Okay, so Im really excited for this Friday night. There is some pretty major news with Fall Out Boy lately. First off, in case you havent read the news about hugely confusing stuff concerning the possibility of a new album, well, there has been a mass confussion. At first everyone thought that this "maze" was something for us to play along with dealing with Fall Out Boy, but actually, its Copeland. So, yeah. Im not going to try to get into it, my mind is hurting from it. Lets just concentrate on the extremely exciting news about tomorrow night, alright?

This Friday night, the last episode of FNMTV will be airing and its supposed to be awesome. So, remember, if you watched it, Pete said that there might be a suprise thrown somewhere in the future show? Well, he didnt let us down. There will be, and I kid you not, 30 seconds played in the first few mintues of the show, of a new Fall Out Boy song. Seriously. So if you can, you really should watch the show. But if you cant, Im pretty sure therell be a video of it on MTV.com or somewhere else so you can hear it for yourself.

The song is not titled yet or anything, but according to petewentzonline, its really great. I hope you all are as excited for it as I am. Ill probably be talking about it alot and maybe re-cap on here in case you didnt get to see it. So if youd like, lets discuss all of this. Its a pretty big deal. Scratch that...HUGE deal. Maybe Ill post a forum topic about it?

Oh, also, go to petewentzonline and you can see some sweet pics from the filming of the last episode of FNMTV.

Just returned from a great night out with friends. We really had a blast. First of all, I had never heard of Christian Stanfield before now, but I was so glad I went and heard him and his band, they pretty much rocked. I actually was able to relax and even headbanged a little. Go me.

Some of my hearing seems to be gone, but it was well worth it. For the rest of the night we walked around the Factory and just talked. Saw alot of people who I haven't seen in months and met some new ones which were completely awesome people. I'm excited to see them again soon. Also want to see the band again in concert, it was great. We were outside on the grass, they were on a stage in front of us and I got super close to the stage which wasn't a problem since there weren't a ton of people there.

Oh, and I swear the lead singer is, like, Brendon Urie's long lost twin brother or something. Really.



In other news...I'm completely excited about school. I think it's starting on Monday and hopefully the messenger bag I ordered will be here by this weekend. If not, it's the old bag I've used forever for now. I'm not completely sure of my schedule, but I think I know my classes. It's nice to be a senior and even though it's quite the opposite of what it should be, I'm not worried about anything. I feel like there is far less pressure than it has been in my previous years. I think it's been said that your sophomore or junior year is the most critical. I don't know, maybe not.

But anyways, this was completely pointless but it's nice to have something to blog about every now and then.

Peace out pplz.

Now, I'm usually not one to believe anything that Perez Hilton says, but when it's actually coming straight from the person he's referring to, that's reason to believe right?



Well, apparently the quotes that were released by Katy Perry's mother, Mary Hudson, were completely made up, according to the "I Kissed A Girl" singer. She explains it all in her vlog for which I've make a link to so you can see for yourself. She says that (now, I'm paraphrasing here) her and her mother have a good relationship and she would never say those things about her daughter. Also, she says she doesn't understand why anyone would want to print something so hurtful.


So why do you think that someone would want to print something like that just to make her mother look bad? Discuss.

tonight i got the weirdest feeling. like a high on life feeling. i went down to the high school track like i always do at night and jog only to discover that there were alot of cars there and the stadium lights were being turned on. then the entire football team came out and began to practice at nearly midnight. in the past, i would have left, feeling like was in the way somehow. but this time i stayed, feeling like i belong there. i can't really explain how good if felt to be there(plus it was below sixty degrees so that helped), i just felt so happy to not have experienced the feeling of being right there during a game, even if it was a practice. it brought back alot of good memories of color guard, standing out there waiting for halftime and pregame.

in a way, it made me sad though, because i won't get to do it this year again. but i am glad i got to experience it once, at least. i had no idea what i was missing out on. this is the only town i've ever lived in where i feel like i belong. like it's home. it's a good feeling.

so, on to other things. it looks like i might not be able to move to wyoming like i thought according to how everything works out, but i don't really have any power over it. i just have to sit back and wait.

this past week i actually sat through a full episode of one tree hill. i'm kind of proud of myself, but i guess the only reason i did was just to see how corny the episode was when fall out boy made an appearance. i literally laughed out loud at the script. good entertainment though, when you're bored.

i'm currently addicted to the new songs from the academy is and have listened to "about a girl" about 30 times in a row. so excited for the album. now now now!



p.s.(i can't choose, can you?)


today feels like a good monday, really sunny, nothing to do. one of those days when i just want to lay on the grass and read a book until the sun goes down. minus the bugs and hot sun and itchiness.

Lately, I feel like I've been taking a long hiatus on life.
I've been avoiding everything.
I'm so tired of it.
I want to just live again.

i guess everyone has that moment in their lives when they realize that they really aren't a kid anymore. i've been treated like i was for so long that it's hard to change your perspective and i guess that's what i've been having to do these past couple of days. i realized just yesterday that i was really finally a senior in high school when i went to change my classes. i did it by myself with my parents not being there, i figured it out and made the decisions. it's truly mind blowing to me personally to be growing up and getting out on my own. after a few months of school, i won't have that to fall back on anymore. i'm going to be my own person. i think in a way high school doesn't end, the social part of it anyway. when you're in college, there are still parties and cliques and cool people and losers but it's only that way for the people who want it to be that way. for me, it's going to be a freeing and wonderful experience, i hope. i feel like it's going to be. i want to be out on my own, i want to take care of myself and not depend on my family to constantly take care of me. i want my own place. god...am i really growing up? where did the time go, seriously. this makes me want to write a song. hah, i think i will.

it's weird how if you're watching an animated movie and you know the people who are doing the voices. you try to picture that person acting it out in your head and to me, it's hard to do. because i see people in the way that they really are and when i hear voice-overs, it's so hard to realize that's them. maybe i'm just weird like that but that's how i feel.

i want to cut my hair badly. it's not that it looks bad or anything, it's just annoying. it's so long and i feel like i want to have a major change for the last year of school, or maybe right before college. i also want some color streaks. my mother would kill me just for saying that.

goodnightxopeaceoutmuchtruelovelaterwhatever.

i've got a sudden craving for chocolate chip cookies. i don't know why. maybe it was something i read. but i've really got to get back into the habit of blogging again, even when there seems like there is nothing much to say.

i feel like i'm always trying to pull stuff out of things that really isn't there. like, there is more to the story isn't there always? i don't know if this makes any sense or not, maybe just to me. i look into things too much and think to hard about everything. just forget what i said. it doesn't matter.

this is probably the funniest thing i've seen in a while besides the two most recent videos i posted which were superb thanks be to pete. here it is, just found it on the q & a:

oh. and this. not funny but very hopeful. it made me smile from ear to ear:

so yeah, i'm such a nerd for this but i don't care. anyways...i'm currently trying to write a bit of fiction if possible. no, NOT fanfic. a book, sort of. slightly true. slightly not. i don't know how it's going to turn out exactly. might take me months to complete but as soon as i'm finished and happy with it, i'll totally let you guys read it. seriously.

goodnight to all and to all a good night.

not too many new things are going on, but i'm still stressed anyway. with everything happening about me moving and all, it's messing up my time to get senior portraits done. i can get them done indepently which probably would turn out far better than the photographers the school hires. i might not move until next year which is frustrating because i won't know anyone out there and can you imagine changing schools senior year, in the middle? i don't know how i'm going to function. and forgive me if i sound whiny about it but it's truly a horrible feeling. i don't feel like i belong anywhere. but i think my real home will always be in florida no matter what. though as long as i've got my family around me, i'll be okay. and thank god for multiple ways of communitcating cross country. i would die without my friends. i miss you all, even the ones i don't get to see any more.

i've been looking through my town quite a bit lately and going into little shops on the main strip. if you were anyone else, you would think that there would be a million and one thrift and vintage shops here since it's a town like this but there's really not and it's disappointing. that being one of the biggest reasons i want to live in l.a. or ny. seriously.

i found these shoes randomly on the net. i think they are amazing. i wish i had a whole closet full of them, different colors.

i know this post is completely pointless but i just felt like it. it's the worst thing when you want to blog so bad but there is nothing to say. but hey, there's always something, right? goodnight, sort of.

there is nothing like writing thirty parts/songs and throwing them in the trash for that one where everyone in the room just stops and gets it.

its such an amazing feeling.

it beats the pictures and the accolades any day of the week.

i am drinking two to three coffees a day again. that may be adding to the excitement.

no recording yet. no official new songs. no new record.

but feeling so good being in a room together.

I have no idea what is going on right now but it's getting way out of hand. This "Mikeyy" guy is hacking into EVERYONE'S buzznet pages and messing it all up. Almost all of my friends are gone and I can't view my profile. This is what came up:

You are viewing this page,because buzznet has lost their loyality to it's members and fellow employers,they failed failed to keep mine and your information safe,which has left me and you having our data loose to the community.They continuously rebuked and ignores my reports of an open exploit in Buzznet,which has caused this obscene act.You are free to continue browsing Buzznet,but remember,Buzznet is not safe,as there are many security holes open.

Regards,Mikeyy

shouts to Coll1per and Jon Hock

This is insane. How could he possibly hack the whole freakin' site? It doesn't make sense. I'm sure almost everyone knows about it now, but still...just pass the word on. Let's hope this isn't permanent.

Oh, and CHANGE YOUR PASSWORDS!!! Please.

i've realized in these past few days of not being able to get on here, i had so much free time to do other things though feeling forced. but it just so happens that it's very good inspiration for writing a song, getting time to do it anyway. it's a record, three in one day. it's not like they're even good, just lines that i write down in messy script on a piece of paper, hoping one day that i'll be able to put them into a song. it's hard with syllables and such but i'll get it eventually.

i go through phases when i only listen to one artist or band for like a month, and then i get absolutely sick of it and don't listen until three months down the road and realize, hey, i used to like that. but then i don't even know if i want to listen to it because i may get addicted again. it's like really good ice cream and then you just want throw up from the sight of it. some reason i get in modes where i explain in everything in metaphors. i don't get and neither should you.

i'm low maintainance, at least i feel like i am. i'm not necessarily one of the girls who stands in front of the mirror for thirty minutes in the morning caking on makeup and hair products. i guess my problem is that i worry about how i look too much, looking into the mirror a million times during the day whenever i feel like a hair is out of place. it's a hard habit to break and trust me, i don't look because i think i look good. because i don't feel like i do for most of the time. i've let go of actually styling my hair everyday or trying to make it look good 24/7. i feel like the natural look is way better, i don't even blowdry it anymore to make it straight. i wouldn't never let it go but sometimes i just want to chop it off because it's so long. it's healthy at least. i could never wear extentions, it would drive me crazy to know that i might accidently pull them out because i'm always running my hands through my hair. i know i sound so lame right now.



yeah, he knows. but who do you love, everyone?

Thursday, June 26, 2008

i cant wait to get on the road again.

posted by xo at 11:31 PM

Okay so if you have an AIM screenname and want to talk to me, just tell me and I'll add you to my buddylist. Mine's pretty bare right now and I need people to talk to. My sn is ohhelloamy in case you didn't know already. So that's it really, just wanted to say that and uh....hope everyone's having a fun weekend. Peace out. 

These are just the people who have responded to being in the contest so far. If you've already told me you want to be in and you don't see your name on the list, please tell me ASAP. I'll add it, okay?

brokenglassheart
falloutgirl97
mcrmyxobeccaxo
xoxoella
artistspin
pleasesayanything
clndstnscene72
fobr0xxx
deetsfordani
theclandestinehuman
debbiedoo
mooch4life
notthedesperatetype
itssoaly
fobandcobra4life
ccastillo
lettyjade
shelly112292
leadsingerobsessee

So now to explain what will happen: I'll be posting a quiz for you guys shortly, it will be your first "mission" to complete. It will be rather simple, no more than 10 questions or so of lyrics. The person with the least amount of points will be eliminated just as it will happen with other things that I come up with to include in the contest. I should have the quiz out by tomorrow(if time permits) and then I'll close it out when everyone has done it.

If you have questions about anything, just ask. It's not a problem at all.

Okay, so for the next few days, I'd like to try a little contest just for us. What you'll do is make a video using pictures, video clips, what have you and pick a Fall Out Boy song. You're favorite, one that really gets you, whatever. Just pick one and then use those pictures and such to go along with the song, however you interpret it. Just be creative with whatever you do. Then once enough of them are in, we'll vote on which one is the best and that person will be featured for a whole week? Sound okay? Just try your best and see what you can come up with. It doesn't have to look professional or fantastic, it can be funny or serious or whatever. Do your own thing. If you have any questions, concerns or anything, just ask me. I'm here. Here's the 'rules'

1. Photos or clips MUST be related to Fall Out Boy in some way, shape or form. Nothing completely off topic.
2. It doensn't have to be an entire song, it can be part of one if you don't have enough material.
3. When you post the video, leave a little explaination below it to explain why you chose the song and what you are trying to show OR  you can post a blog about it. Heck, write a poem about it. Just express yourselves.
4. Remember, you've only got a week to do this but it's not too hard.
   

I'll try to make one myself if I have time because I want to be doing things right along with everyone else. So have fun, try to do this if you'd like or if you have time. Peace out.